Wednesday, July 27, 2005

not enough hours in the day

Since I have gone back to work, I feel there are not enough hours in the day to run the house, do laundry, be an involved parent for the children, grocery shop, cook etc. Since I have gone back to work I feel I need a nice fifties housewife who keeps the house clean and waits for the children with milk and chocolate chip cookies after they come out of school at times that I can't be there because a meeting is running late. I feel terribly torn about it all and I wonder if working mothers out there feel the same splitness: when I am at work I think of my children and when I am at home with the children I think of work. I think, I believe men don't experience this kind of guilt because they're better at compartmentalizing. All this requires, I am afraid, that I want to let go a little, that is not want it all careerwise so I can mean more to my children as they grow up. This is hard because after five years of fulltime motherhood I worked hard to get back to a career but now that I am there the view is not as good as I thought it would be. I'm contemplating scaling down my ambitions and do the right thing. At the same time I agonize whether that is the right thing?! I want to know if there are mothers out there who feel the same way. Anyone?!

Inez

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