Saturday, June 18, 2005

Mistakes

When I look back at the judgments I have made, I cannot believe how stupid so many of them have been and I know that indeed hindsight is very, very wise. However I have come to the conclusion that there is no such thing as a mistake. Instead, I think we make the best decision we can under the circumstances using all the information we have processed thus far. It is consoling but also sad to think this way because often our pre-conceived notions force us into an action we feel we SHOULD do or think or be. If we could but dismiss those illogical pre-set patterns given to us by people who are not living our lives, we might keep ourselves closer to our chosen path.
I also feel that many errors in judgment that I make are because I trust people. I cannot believe that anyone deliberately wants to do evil. I think that only when someone is threatened do they hurt another deliberately and in my life, I have seen that this is not true. Often the joy of second guessing someone or beating them out of what they deserve is a challenge that people do not consider immoral at all. Think of themselves as clever... a winner in life.
If that is so, I am a loser. I do the best I can with what I know. I trust the world because I love it. I give of myself because I want to. It makes me human and that after all is why I am here.
Or isn't it?

1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Very True. Honest. Human. You are wonderful to give voice to feelings that most people really don't want to know about. That is, the awareness we are flawed, "losers" every last one of us. There's perfection in that realization. Winning perfection.*

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* Sure would be cool to have my entry end abstractly at that. But it's worth asking, why is it "winning" to realize we are all "losers." It's because our worth to the Universe is beyond that duality. That's what all the winning and losing duality is about. Training us to crank our awareness up a thousand notches so we get past these things. It's like bombing at standup comedy so much you don't give a fuck anymore. It's about getting better at it.

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