Letting Go

LETTING GO by Lynn Ruth
November 27, 2005

I wonder where we need to draw the line between standing up for ourselves and letting go of the abuse all of us must endure as we plod through life. To catch my readers up on the status of the appeal I lost, I applied for a re-hearing because of a miscarriage of justice and the presiding judge George Miram sent my request back to the pro-tem judge Richard Romanski who had ignored my documentation of the car sale and decided against me. And so Miriam’s injustice is added to the original affront. The lawyer who promised to help me if my appeal for a re-hearing backed out and I find myself consumed with hatred. Fury at Renee for lying and winning, driving my car without paying, lying in court and succeeding, fury at Richard Romanski who ignored written documentation proving our agreement, anger at George Miram for being so insensitive he sent my appeal to the very man who "did me in" to decide if there was basis for a re-hearing, fury at a system that says it will protect the elderly and does not respond unless the senior is dead and anger at lawyers who won't touch a case unless it means hundreds of thousands in fees to them.
This judgment goes far beyond the 1600 dollars this woman owes me in court. It proves that anyone who screams loud and long can take anything they want away from another who is weaker and more vulnerable. It proves that a man who is prejudiced against the elderly (or could it be Jews...I hate to think THAT is still an issue) has the power to act on his bias in a court that is supposed to protect its citizens.
My conclusion is this: Renee and everyone like her has won in this society. She is free to abuse others, steal from them and lie at will and no one will try to stop her because she has no scruples about manipulating truth. What haveI learned? It is a sad lesson: I need to try to live my life as carefully as I can because anyone and everyone can cheat, steal and abuse me and I have no protection whatsoever. It is a very frightening assessment of our society but it is sadly a true one. Now when someone is kind to me I recoil and refuse because I fear they will turn the favor they have offered against me. It has happened too many times before.
They say that a government is judged by how they treat the elderly and the poor. I am both.
And I will always lose.